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Hey! im back to blogging again. notice i seldom keep my blog updated? its because i'm busy with my work (and games..) till i am really lazy to blog something. and yeah, march holidays ended in a blink of an eye. and what's upcoming next will be homeworks, EXAMS. SA1 examinations are super early this year. just a month after march holidays! And recently i'm getting sick and tired of school. It's really tiring and i'm afraid i can't stand it any longer. Sometimes i really wonder what in life i'm actually living for. Everyday, going to school, waiting for the weekends to rest. weekends, staying at home, waiting for weekdays to go to school. i dont have a goal in life! i dont even know what i want to be in the future! What am i working hard for? I hate doing things without a goal/purpose, i tend to feel that im just doing it for the sake of doing it! Why am i studying so hard? I dont even know what i wanna be in the future! Like if i'm studying for a purpose like for example, become a doctor in the future, i will have the motivation to push myself further! But now what? i have nothing! I have no goals, no motivation, so what should i do in my life?!

My results are deteriorating, too. i dont get why, perhaps i've been slacking off too much this year and i feel that it's hard to get back on track. getting good results aint difficult, maintaining is the hard, and stressful part. dealing with teachers, parents, and myself's expectation, i cant afford to fail. I have my own expectations to get, and i am afraid these expectations are the main reasons why i fail - i\ve been putting too much efforts on myself that i cant take it. Having all these said, i still want to thank people who have always been encouraging me - my friends and family..