I can't imagine feeling about anyone else the way I feel about you.

Hello earthlings! Short post here right nownownow. (: Hmmm today is a typical sunday for me. :( Very really bored to the shit that i used the computer almost the whole day. Going offline soon, my eyes are closingggg. There's school tomorrow. Fml. And there's hair and attire check. DOUBLE FML. I cut my nails already! :) Was really bored to the very extend. Now playing a new game called Ponzi i guess. This game! And yeah the game was not bad! You can try it. :) And yeah, i changed a blogskin again! Quite satisfied with it. ;] Alright, ending here now. Offline soon. Nights! :D

Putting a fake smile when inside it's bleeding.

I don't care anymore. Hell yeah.

I just don't undestand.

Fuck-ed up life. Everything just went wrong, fucking wrong. You call me to give up, you call me to let go, you call me to forget. You said its a deal, if anyone fails to do it must pay 10 dollars. Two days before you told me this. But yesterday you stead with him. Yeah and i wanted the 10 dollars, you dont want to give. And end up arguing with me. Idk why. Idk where am i in the wrong you know? Can anyone tell me? Where am i wrong? Please.. You picked up a fight with me and now you/re saying like as if i'm in the fault, idw to listen?..What the fuck is this. You can stead with him and i cannot like him. I really think that this world is very unfair. I just don't understand why everything is unfair for me. But nevermind. If you think it's my fault to be stubbon, my fault to not listen to you all. Everything was my fault. I caused all these to happen. So be it. Idc already. Seriously.

And so I've been wondering; who's your heart beating for?

Life had been miserable for me. Not really but i just hate life. We're classmates, yet we have to act like we're strangers. Why? I am scary. Ya so this is your reason? Don't you think it's lame?.. Lol.. >< Thanks leonard, for telling me. Thanks and sorry to sisters. Giving me advice encouraging me to give up but i just simply can't. I need time, but i don't want. Why? Idk too.. Maybe i can't bear to. Thanks qinyu too. I shall end here now. Or later i'll be continue posting secrets. Bye.. Sisters, i'll be fine don't worry.. :) But the old racheltanjiaxuan is dead. It can't be alive again. Maybe one day it can. I guess.

春天慢慢一点点发芽　快乐开始都有了想像
城市光合作用的模样　幸福开始组装

＊夜里满园的茉莉花香　月光洒落看不见忧伤
　旋转木马前那个广场　爱情开始滋长

※想你有时会缺氧　嘴角不自觉上扬
　这是不是幸福的现象　胸口微微的发烫

＃想你有时会缺氧　脸红呼吸不正常
　这是不是幸福的症状　不知不觉又缺氧
转载来自 ※Mojim.com　魔镜歌词网

Repeat ＊,＃

无法移动的梦想　就算没有人鼓掌　我也不会受伤
不会稀释的信仰　心穿越砖墙　在你的身旁

Repeat ※

想你有时会缺氧　脸红呼吸不正常
这是不是幸福的症状　胸口微微的发烫　不知不觉又缺氧



想你有时会缺氧.. And yeah it's true.

我很想他

我知道你还是爱着我 虽然
分开的理由 我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过 所以
即使到最后 还微笑着 要我加油
我知道你还放不下我 才会
在离开时 闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中 其实
这份爱没停过

Suddenly.. I'm in love in this song, again. Especially the lyrics.

School was okay. But life just fuckingly sucks. Can anyone help? Imissyou.

答應你我會好好過 不讓這些眼淚白流

:( ........

I've come to realise, its the What If's that hurt the most.

HELLO!!!!!!!!!!! Sorry for not posting anything proper. Common tests are at these days! Tmr will have the LAST TEST! Geo! :D FINALLY HOR. One day 2 test, omg! Today had D&T test! Science and chineseee. 3 test in a day!!!!!!!! Science is quite easy, but i think cmi la! Cause i suck in science! D&T IS DAMN DIFFICULT I TELL YOU. HAHA. Chinese MORE cmi. SO DIFFICULT LA. Tmr geo. CMI TOO OMG. i hate geo. JIAYOU TO PEOPLE HAVING GEO INCLUDING ME!
 

AND TAG MORE LEHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I FOUND THE ACTUAL SONG I WAS LISTENING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's was the same song, well no wonder i heard that song before.

Over sensitivity

Another great song.. :) Love it veryvery much! This gonna be one of my fav song. Bring back some memories. I think i heard this music before. Can't remember it. But really like it. Listen it! You won't regret! Althought it's on cantonese, but just listen to the music, wonderful. (:

Edited some parts of my blog. Changed mixpod to singingbox. Can't play youtube songs. Sad die. Thanks wanyu for teaching me how to add songs aye. Need search one. xD Well quite a crappy post ya.

School and common test tomorrow. Jiayou bbss-ians! And 2N1-ians, brothers and sisters! Hope this common test will be a good one. With everyone passing. (: And yeah, i hope all brothers and sisters could promote together to 3N1. (:

Yay, i posted a proper post i guess? :) I hope i could forget you, believe me i could, maybe. And i created a private blog. (Y) All my feelings will be posted inside. Alright, end here noww. Byebye.

It's not easy as you think.

I tried to move on. I really did. I tried to tell myself that you don’t want me and I can’t have you anymore. I tried so hard, but how can you let go of the only person who makes you happy? The only person who makes you feel alive? The only reason you’re still here? You just can’t let go of someone like that.

"What is trust to you?"

and to me, it's just something easy to lose in somebody and hard to build.

Keep going right back to the one thing that I need to walk away from.

FUNNY VIDEO!!! Recommended by Amelia. DAMN DAMN FUNNY I SWEAR. HAHAHHA. MADE ME AND MY SISTER LAUGHED LIKE MAD! :D

Finally today is friday, will be having common test at monday. Jiayou bbss-ians! And jiayou to me too! Ganbattle! :D Amelia teached me this word, haha! It's means jiayou! Tomorrow going to mac to revise work, and do science project right after tuition. Arghhh i'm still abit scared of common test idk why. Hahaha. Okay ending my post here now. (: Nights.

You are the definition of love.

HELLO! Sorry for not posting for DAYS as i am lazy to. lol. Eh how was the cny holidays ah? I enjoyed it but my total hongbao money was only $170.. =( Pathetic enough. haha. Okay then day2 was alright, alot people came my house. Hahaha quite noisy. I'm in my own room. When i go out the whole living room is smoking smell-.- fucking smelly can. Arghhhh.

Day3 was fun. Went out with Amelia, Jieyu, Tingwei, Alex chen, Yaqi, Benjamin and Wanyu. Hahahaaa. went to jurong safra for kbox. Sang for a total of... 2hr plus ah. Got photos to upload. I dont have alot, some of them from jieyu there. Maybe i'll edit this post and add the photos.




Yeah, finish posting the pictures. (: Had much much fun @ kbox. But end up the bill is $27.70 per person. Didn't bring enough money! Only brought 20 dollars. D: Amelia help me pay first! Thanks! :D Then walked to bangala park. It's jurong central park but cause but they called it bangala park! Haha! :D Play and chatted awhile. The boys playing sanddd. Hahas.
After that on the way walking back to jurong point yaqi asked me the date. I say it's 17 jan. Malini bday! She's like shcocked cause she dontknow, LOL. Then called Malini and sang HAPPY BIRTHDAY! =D Yeah called the boys sing with us too. xD Malini damn shocked!!!

Went jurong point, then went to interchange with amelia. Seperate ways to take bus. (: Reached home, day3. Yeah enjoyed.
Day4. School, sianzxccccccccccxczzzz. And today is day5. Ha, chinese new year gone so fast.

I'm afraid that I'm not good enough for you, and I never will be.

Happy cny!

Ohyeah! Hello hello! Happy chinese new year and valentines day people! :D This cny was still okay, quite boring yah. ._. Many people rotting at home. Same here! But yesterday i went to my wai po's house (mother side) to bai nian! My another grandmother (father side) too! Cause her house is just beside my house, LOL. But my wai po house is at jurong point there. D:

Then in the morning around 10am plus, prepared things and got a hongbao from my mother. $10, pathetic enough LOL. Okay then bused to jurong point. Took bus to wai po house. Only 2 stops, ahaha. Reached there say GONG XI FA CAI then got hongbaos! :D :D :D They watched movie, laughing all the way. But i am using computer. (: Cause very bored. The movie like damn funny like that, everyone laughing. LOL!

Okay then at around 3pm plus. Said byebye to wai po then bused back home. Played computer, then heard lion dance sound. Dongdongqiang! Hahaha! Okay then outside is damn noisy. x.x Got some lion dance pics from my mother, gna post it up now. It's damn cute. :D



Isn't it cute. HAHAAH. :D The first pic is my father friends. ^^ Last pic is the lion make one. :D And i also have a video of the lion dance. But my mother's phone is iPhone so she cannot send to my phone. :( :( But she posted it on Facebook. :D The lion dance pics are also taken from facebook one. :D
Click here to view the video. :D

Okay then at night 8pm plus, prepared and my father went to jurong east to take his friends and we to he pan. :D Reached he pan, the games are damn scary can?! One of them is like pirate ship, at first i thought the game is pirate ship. But it isn't! The thing will spin 360 DEGREES HIGH UP UP UP. WTF, EVEN I AM WATCHING THEM PLAYING I ALSO SCARED CAN. And also have another game, you stand inside the circle then the thing will SPIN SPIN SPIN. WTF, DAMN FAST.

I saw bumper cars, i want play but my mother don't allow. :( :( Sad-ed. She say what here pay very expensive one. Tsk, nevermind. Then walkwalk. Brought a tiger, ^^ Damn cute, i hang it with my phone. My sister take pink one. I take yellow one. I think yellow one is cuter, and it's the last one already HAHAHA.

Walked finish then my father bring his friends back to jurong east then home sweet home! Hehehe this is my DAY1 of cny! I think i will post DAY2 tmr. And today is day2 la. LOLOL. Today night many people coming my house. Omgay hongbaos again! :D :D :D But i guess it won't be alot. ._. Cause coming de people is my father's friend.

Last year i even got some hongbaos $2 ones. but got 1 or 2 $10 ones nia. Aaaaaa. I think this year total up hongbao money will be only $200. :( Okay byebye. I want go audi liao hahaahah.

Happy new year!

Happy new year people! (: And a happy happy happy VALENTINES DAY TO ALL COUPLES! ((: To singles, hope you all can find your dream boy/girl alright! Don't be impatient the right one will come one day okay! (: I'll single this valentines YAY ):

I think this thing called love is another word for pain.

When we were little, life worked perfectly. No matter what happened, everything turned out alright in the end. Scraped knees, cancelled play dates, dropped ice cream cones — we would cry for a short time, but by the end of the day, everything would be perfect. And now as we’ve grown older, we’ve lost the faith as we stumble through each day, crying over broken hearts, lost friendships, and lost dreams. It seems like life and perfection have turned their backs on us, but really its just that we’ve grown up. As children we didn’t pay attention to such details about our daily lives, but now we are more aware and little details seem to be amplifying our pain. But just remember that when we were younger, life was hard too, but we had faith in perfection because we could look past faults. So don’t lose your faith. Learn to know that each day will pass, each heartache will be mended, and everything will be perfect in the end. Just keep your faith.

Find a heart that will love you at your worst and arms that will hold you at your weakest.

Hello! Today is friday, like finally. :]! Well today had chinese new year celebration at school! First lesson was chinese reading. Did nothing actually, didn't receive any newspaper. ._. Then it's chinese. Sian sian sian~ Maths, was very tired. Drawed graphs. Recess. Didn't eat. After that, went to hall for assembly. Chinese new year celebration. Watched a video that shows teachers singing chinese new year songs. I really laughed like mad. Especially when i saw mrs goh in the video. Lion dance too, the lion damn cuteee. thenthen modern dance! That dance very cuteee. Yaqi was being pulled back in the end, hahaha! xD Okay then is wu shu. Damn cool + handsome can! After school, actually wanted to go back PEPS with royce & elaine. But last minute royce dw go liao. sua ahh, idw go too liao. then went jurong point. Sat bus with tingwei, angus and benjamin. Actually wanted to sit taxi but ALL OF THEM is either busy or hired. Wdf sia, then by the time we alr walk to bustop alr. Bus came, then bused to jurong point. Found zhenhao and royce they all at kopitiam. Called jieyu and she say she reached jurong point. Met at kopitiam. Ate lunch. Wanyu came, with yixin. Chatted and joked. Walked around jurong point. Homed at around 3.30pm. Alright i finally update something proper, huh?

Update tomorrow!

Sorry, my blog's kinda dead. Spent around ONE BLOODY HOUR for this skin! Quite satisfied with it now. Maybe i'll post tomorrow alright? My eyes are really closing already. Oh yeah, geokqin's leaving to m'sia tomrrow. :'( Have a safe trip and takecare alright! Drink more water and don't get sick. (: And yay tomorrow is new year eve already. Time flies, my hongbaos coming soon! Yeap so... Goodnight! Sleep naoz. Tired. T_T

Don't waste your time with the people who don't make you feel alive.

Well, people how's life out there? Mine sucks, it really do.

You said you would never leave.

Hello! Sorry for not really updating my blog. Was lazy to update too. :( Anyway, i added alot of songs in my playlist! My playlist have around... 40 songs now... LOL. Hahaha, okay that was alot. :X School is boring, don't really like it but chinese new year is coming too. =) Aww i'm damn excited for the hongbaos! Argh, ending here alrighttt. Anyway, auditionsea had alot of new songs! Tiktokkk is one of them! Haha!

Ohmy. I'm craving for iPod touch.
http://store.apple.com/sg/browse/home/shop_ipod/family/ipod_touch?mco=MTM3NDcxNDc


8GB
1,750 songs
10 hours of video
Earphones
S$ 308.00

Yes, 8GB will be fucking enough for me. I have only 300+ songs in my computer, haha! $308 seems impossilbe for me. Too expensive? ): ):

Of course I miss you. It’s all I do.

"I think we spend too much time wondering why we’re not good enough. We spend too much time overanalyzing, over-thinking, and overreacting. We waste too much time putting ourselves down, so much that we don’t ever stop to see that well, we are good enough. You are good enough. Always remember that."

Well i'm boreddd! Nothing to do lor, what the hell! Have to do art tomorrow, DOUBLE SIAN! I hope i can go out tomorrow~ with my ahma! HAHAAH :D I want her buy clothes for me! :P And i can't wait for new year, i want my hongbaos! My mother promised to half half then money with me! Like yay! But she say what deduct the money i used to buy clothes. Fml -.- I want use the money to buy new clothes one can! Last year my hongbao money total up is about $300 plus.. So this year, i will get about $150! :D :D :D OMG so much! Hahaha! Am money sick. :P Oh yeah and valentines day is coming!!!!!! Gonna be alone this year, i wish you'll be beside me, i really do.. And i want MORE MORE MORE clothes! D: I am lacking of nicenice clothes~ And my mother just refuse to buy for me, she say i have alot of clothes alr. When i dont have. She say she no money buy liao! Arghhhh....! Shorts!! What i need the most is SHORTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Lacking of it SERIOUSLY AND I HAVE ONLY 2 NEW ONES, PATHETIC ENOUGH HUH. School on monday!!!!!!!!!!!! TRIPLE SIAN. I accidently tear a 10 DOLLAR NOTE. Used sticky tape to tape it. My mother say what i tear de so i must use it!!! FUCK!??!!?! IS I TAKE THE 10 DOLLAR NOTE FOR MY SISTER, SHE WANT GET BACK, I DONT WANT GIVE HER BACK, SHE PULL THE NOTE THE PIAK............... TORN ): AND IT'S MY FAULT AGAIN!!!!!!!!!! LIFE'S FUCKINGLY UNFAIR PLZ. Monday gonna try if i can use that 10 DOLLAR NOTE OR NOT. IF NO, MAYBE 2 DAYS NO NEED EAT. OH FUCK. BUT I DONT CARE I WILL STILL TAKE MY POCKET MONEY FROM MY MOTHER HAHAHAHA. And my parents brought alot of sweets for new year. They don't allow me to open and eat the sweets!!!!! ): How bad can they be, right?!?!!? And my father brought alot of BEERS today. OMGGGGG. I HATE BEER HONESTLY, BITTER LIKE......... FUCK CAN!?!?! I tried before, and IS MY FATHER CALL ME TO DRINK ONE HAHAHAAH. Really sucks la the beer. ): I rmb is TIGER BEER. :@ And audi SUCK, i keep miss the move BEFORE THE FINISH  MOVE. FML!!!!! Okay, quite a LONG+CRAPPY POST TODAY LIAO. BYEBYE LATER I WANT GO SLEEEEEEP LIAO. K, night and BYEEEE.

You shouldn’t have to sacrifice who you are just because somebody else has a problem with it.

Hello people! :D Life had been damn damn boring these few days. And finally it's weekends! But i'm still bored yah. D: Less and less people are tagging me alr~ Tag more leh! Or else i don't post liao haha! Joking behhh. Nothing much to post this few days. And my mother just don't let me go out. I can't even choose my own clothes. Please la, i forteen years old alr ley! 30 dollars shirt you say too expensive. But that is what i want. You only want to help me choose, and everytime is T-SHIRTS. Not 10 dollars, then 5 dollars. Wdf. I am not a kid already, can you let me choose my own clothes? I really hate this, really. Changed a blogskin, can nagivate one. Quite satisfied with it. Skipped tuition today. Idw go, tired. Ending here now, tag more and click my ads. Bai.

I don't want you to be better off without me.

Hello! School's getting more and more bored yah~ Lucky science today wasn't veryvery bored BUT FUNNN! Cause go science center ma. :P Well i have about 40 pictures to post, quite lazy BUT i'll post anyway. :D See i go good sial! Hahaha! Bhb. :P We only went to 'energy' places. Omg and stupid alex scare me with fake cockroach make me xiaxuey like shit in mac. ._. Wet myself in the end, wtf. Play water. 8B. I most wet ley, whole skirt from light grey become dark grey. :B Thanks elaine for the 60cents too. Homed at 5pm. Post pictures nao;



Done posting. I want to give up but i doubt i can, so what's the meaning of only saying. Might as well holding on hoping there'll be hope. Yeah so. Let nature take it's course yahhh. Bai.