And so I've been wondering; who's your heart beating for?

Life had been miserable for me. Not really but i just hate life. We're classmates, yet we have to act like we're strangers. Why? I am scary. Ya so this is your reason? Don't you think it's lame?.. Lol.. >< Thanks leonard, for telling me. Thanks and sorry to sisters. Giving me advice encouraging me to give up but i just simply can't. I need time, but i don't want. Why? Idk too.. Maybe i can't bear to. Thanks qinyu too. I shall end here now. Or later i'll be continue posting secrets. Bye.. Sisters, i'll be fine don't worry.. :) But the old racheltanjiaxuan is dead. It can't be alive again. Maybe one day it can. I guess.